Don't give a damn

this evening i went to see a doctor cos my flu and fever hv been very annoying. i thought i would get better after taking the mdicine my mom gave me. but it turned out that my sickness was getting worse. tat's why my temperature raised up to 38 degree C. I lost weight like 1.5kg and my stamina DROPPED.

Sighh, im feeling miserable now. let's hope that i will get better by tomorrow..

but what really had made me feel sad is the fact that HE lied to me. It happened very long time ago and i just found out the truth.

I sent a msg to his ex on fb to get to know her. But the way she replied to my msg made me angry. I just asked whether she and him are still contacting each other and she said things like "how can u suspect your own bf?" "so wad if we stil msg each other,anyway,i knew him earlier than u" "we were close and both our families had already known each other" BLA BLA BLA ...

How could i stay clam uh??

i was furious,i told her that she shouldn't be so thick-skinned cos he had once sent her a msg asking her not to disturb him anymore.

i stil remember cos it happened when we went to bbq with our phy teacher in cck. tat time i was angry bcos she msg-ed him [forgot what she really typed]. he didnt want me to be angry so he showed me his reply msg which was smth like "dont msg me anymore.."

i thought he really mean it,but actually he didn't.

i just knew it when she replied my msg "didn't u know that after that he msg me again to say sorry and he didnt mean to say that.."

U know how it felt when i rceived her msg?? 

it's a TERRIBLE feeling :'(

now i don't know how to address this issue with him. he is away and we can't chat online.

anyway,i think it's no use to ask him cos i feel that he won't tell me his true feelings.

i didn't even know that he is stil in contact with her. 

do u think it'd be better if i didn't know the truth?..

i don't know either ..

im sorry for being rude and use your account to log in to fb yesterday. I did it bcos i needed some answers. sorry ..

i saw your conversations with her in msg. it was on 2nd january i think.

.....................

i really really dont know what to do.

maybe i shouldn't talk to him for this period of time :(

kay,i shall end my post here.

if u find that this is too emotional,then please don't read it.

goodnight ~ 

FIRST THING FIRST

hi guys,finally I'm blogging. Actually i'hv never been interested to blog.

maybe it's because im the type who don't like to share my feelings with others.

But never mind, im very excited that finally i hv created my own blog =p

first things first,im stil in indo spending good times with my mom,dad and my sister.

my sem 2 will start next monday which is 5 April and im sooo excited again bcos i wil be learning accounting. yayy !

Okay,i hv to end this post already cos im rushing.

Anyways,here are some pictures i hv taken during my holiday :)